It was just a strange day. I got in a bit of trouble at work. Then I lost my keys. Then I got out of trouble. Then I had to do more math at work. Then I cried.
Well, not really, but I could’ve.
I had another cardio day. It was the same as yesterday. I burned 520 calories according to the treadmill. Not too shabby. I shouldn’t complain. I’m not complaining, actually I was pretty proud.
I have found that I like to read while I’m on the treadmill. It is something that keeps me more entertained than music. It is quite a bit more involved than just zoning out to music. The distraction is perfect.
I have Lex tomorrow. I’m in for a heap of trouble. It’s gonna be awesome. Hopefully, I’ll feel more like myself then. I’m still dealing with that nagging pain. Nothing a little rest can’t cure.
Here’s to hoping that’s true.
There is something I don’t like to talk about. Something I’m a little ashamed to admit. I’m hesitant to see family because I think they’ll judge my weight.
Well, this weekend I had to overcome this. I had family come visit from Costa Rica. They were very pleased with my progress. They do judge a little. I love them and I know they will expect better from me.
I do look better than the last time they saw me. I’m stronger and thinner and I don’t eat as much. All good things. It was a wonderful thing. I was so stressed to see them because I haven’t been happy with my body, bit hearing that I looked good and that I had lost weight made me feel great. It’s not about being shallow, it’s about knowing they are proud. It made my anxiety disappear. I’m happy that I was able to show change.
Today was another unprecedented day at the gym. I worked out for an hour with Lex and then I did 40 minutes of cardio. I did 18-20 incline and 2.6 speed. I was feeling it.
Another unprecedented thing: I used the stairstepper for the first time ever. It was…different. I didn’t like it. But I’m alive. Yay!
Tomorrow I will be doing CX30 and probably Body Pump. I’ll be at the gym for at least another hour and a half. It feels great.
Who the heck am I?